Haven't been updating really detailed cause as usual i can't be bothered HAHAHHA~
Life have been great except for the fact that I'm like broke. HAHA. But finally went out with my dear Raey. As you can see she's blonde now HAHHA! Lucky girl. Trying to turn white too ): Have been buying tons of whitening cream and staying out of the sun. From now on I'll put sunblock whenever I'm going out cause I'm even darker than kimberly. Once I turn white, HELLO TO GINGER HAIRRRRR ^^ 

Anyway had a great time catching up with Raey. She gave me a new prospective about what I wanna take in UNI. Not something I've really thought about but yeah. Most likely gonna spend my last week in Singapore at home cause I need to think of a design for my room. Really hoping mummy and daddy will let me have a mini walking wardrobe with my dressing table in it. Anyway I'm gonna paint parts of my wall turquoise. Now thinking of a design for my war. Helping dad and mom think of one in the living room too. But totally no idea~ Yeah this is why i need to stay at home.

Anyway gonna sleep early now. Tmr going to ant's hse to cook tgt with toon ^^ our usual cooking session HAHA! 

Now I'm freaking distracted by running man. It's freaking FUNNY!!?!?!? BYEEEEEEEEE ^^

 

I like this photo with my bro HAHA! We look so cutezxz

Anyway haven't been updating lately cause have been catching up with my dramas HAHA! 

Glad that I've been meeting up most of my friends but...I'm damn broke now. Need to find job asap but that lady is not getting back to me. 

Watching some thai drama now which is damn nice. HAHAH! But drama always give people hope ): Ohwell. Back to my drama again HAHAHHAHA. BYE

Met Reena for a run today. Both Clara and Reena accompanied me to dye my hair ^^ I love my juniors luh, Always there for me :3 Cut + Highlight + Dyed my hair. Thankfully I don't look soo ahlian. The highlight isn't as light as what I want but ohwell. Too bad my hair too short. ZZZ.

Can't wait for prom tmr. Tmr need to exercise like mad manzxz. Okay back to my nails. BAIZXZ

Finally bought my prom dress. Not my ideal type but ohwell. I've to make do with it. Anyway it's not worth splurging so much ): Poor girl 94 ): Hopefully I won't look so ahlian :/

Anyway meeting Reena tmr and jog + Dye my hair + do my brows. Hopefully won't screw up. HAHAHA, gotta say I really love Kimberly and Kiat for being so patient and always waiting for me while i try my dress. Really love the bralet from topshop but ): exxx GAHH. Not forgetting my 4C guys for always being so patient with me HAHHAHHA. So sorwieee ): Ohwell shall sleep now. NIGHTS ^^
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Finally back from Msia. Okay need time to do all the catching up manzxz. But this trip is really great. Great bonding session with my family especially my brother. HAHA. Practically spent the whole trip tgt with him cause of his ^^ HAHAHAHAH. Ohwell he's damn lame. Hoping that it'll continue being like that after this trip. More gym ^^

Bought everything but my prom dress ): mom don't want me to get one cause she said it's a waste of money plus I'm gonna wear only once so she ask me to wear the old ones. SIANZX. Plus I just realised my heels are really high. 10cm *.* Okay I thought it's only 2 inch but now...I think I'm so gonna end up walking damn weirdly during prom. Hopefully I'll be able to find it tmr cause if not I'll really end up wearing the old dress )): Can't wait to see my juniors + 4C + Kiat and Kim tmr ^^ Happy day i hope (: Bye

 

I wanna have white skin too ): Then I'll be able to dye all the colours in the world and NOT look weird. Back to physics again ): LAST DAY TO LIBERATION! bye ):

Having blister at the most uncomfortable place. Price to pay for trying to hard. But I really want abs ): I guess I need to find alternative ways to get it ): Stupid sit up ): Plus 1200 skipping ^^ WOOHOO ^^ truely satisfied.

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 Gonna start by 3hours workout daily once A lvl end ): For now shall just keep it to 1h 30mins. Studied with Sharon at Airport as usual and found a really cheap spaghetti place there. Really value for money! Apparently today is my most productive day HAHA. But seriously i suck at MCQ. Gonna redo all the tys MCQ tmr. Ohwell can't wait for Wednesday and Friday ^^ Out with my 4C people to buy prom stuff and Friday going Malaysia. Hopefully can get my prom stuffs there ): Hopefully I'll be able to dye my hair on Thurs :/ Hopefully. For now back to TVD ^^ BYEEEE

Lately have been watching damn a lot of movies. Ahboy to men, Pitch Perfect and Breaking Dawn.

 Pitch Perfect

Gotta say I really LOVEEE the show.

Love the little child response HAHAHHA!

This movie to freaking funny luh. It's not exactly a chick flick but then again it's soooo entertaining. One of my favourite movie of all time. Rebel Wilson was really funny TTM manzxz. HAHHAHAHA

Breaking Dawn

At last the ending wasn't that bad. It's one of the better twilight movies HAHA.

 

The child is sooooo pretty. Ohwell at least it ended. They should totally continue the story about what happen to Renesmee and Jacob. ): Ohwell at least it's finally over. 

As for ahboytomen. I think it's overrated. Hahaha. maybe cause I'm not that proficient with dialect so... HAHAHA. 

Yup overall I felt Pitch Perfect was the best. 

Anyway today studied with Kimberly at Airport. Both of us were like...nuaing. Didn't have to motivation to study cause firstly one of my eye is swelling like... crap. Ohwell shouldn't about his eyes. Shall sleep now. bye

Studied at the airport with Rich, Sean and Ant. Really so thankful for my brothers. We attempted studying but hahahah as usual started talking and all. Had lots of fun talking to them, like there's always stuffs to talk about with them and the day will just ZOOM damn quickly with them around. Always so retarded as usual but at the same time I'll really miss them after A lvls. Hopefully I'll be able to find more opportunity to pull them out and play hahahahhahhaha! But yeah, sorry luh, I really didn't pengseh yall ): Just that sometimes you know, since yall got more people, even without me I'm sure y'all will be doing fine (: HAHAHAHA

Anyway my dear Clara and Reena left Singapore alr. Sent them off today ):

 

Will really miss both of them cause especially with the small talks and all. :/ After A lvls mannnn!

On a sidenote, really thought through things and I'm really glad everything changed after 2 years. Makes me a really happy and better person now. Yup. Shall sleep early. So tired now. BYEEEE

Really love the hair on the RIGHTTT! Damn chio rightzxz. I'm thinking should I highlight my hair ombre gradient and colour it like that. But I scared I'll look too lian ):

 

This looks damn nice too ): Really wanna dye my something like that but my hair toooooooo SHORT ):

Really like this too ): I don't know will my parents allow but the colour looks really good ):

 

Honestly speaking if I'm whiter, I'll try this ): Too bad it won't last cause I'm not red headed plus once my black hair starts to grow )): It'll be GONE ):

 Really want gradient plus some highlights too ): Scared my hair look too colourful plus it isn't long enough for gradient. AHHHH HOWWWW ):

BYE TUMBLR! Back to blogger again HAHA. Okay maybe I'll still use tumblr but I like blogger more. Easier to edit haha! Although A lvl isn't over but seriously, I'm like enjoying life now. Maybe I'm just not cut out to be like some smart and hardworking person. Really cannot stand hardcore studying ): GAHH. Ohwell If i really do badly, I guess I deserve it man.

Went for netball friendly today with Bedokview and gotta say I've aged. Really aged. Felt really tired after all the warmup. But nevertheless, had fun playing with my juniors ^^ Such a lovely and retarded bunch! Can't wait for our picnic outing after PROM! HEHEHEHEH~

Went to Amanda's hse after that and we're obsessed with hot girls. Seriously Miley Cyrus + Victoria Secret girls. Why are they so hot. I admire miley's midriff. Seriously her midriff is to DIE FORRRR.

 

If only I'm as discipline as her ): Walaoo, I'll be like ....

HAHA okay this thing is really fun to play with HAHHA. I know I'm like lag but hey, blame it on A lvls. Didn't have a life for the entire year manzxz.

Miranda Kerr too ):

 

She's alr a mom and yet so hot. I should totally just

  

This GIF thing is really damn cute HAHAHAHAHA

I'll totally start my 10km run soon ): 

Shall update another time HAHA. BYEEE

 

This concert is probably the last and final concert. Initially I thought that friendships will last as long as someone will make the effort but in life I guess people come and go and you will just end up making new friends and forget about the past. Everything that's going on now seems so clear. I really wanna maintain it but I know it's not possible.

Maybe it's time for me to get certain things out of my chest. Need to start being an honest friend.

Maybe I'll change back to tumblr again cause it's damn hard to post stuff on blogger. Ohwell. BYEEE

I like one-one conversation. It allows me to know someone more. Initially I thought I'm just totally different from him, like we think and act differently. But after today, I understand why he's like that. I guess it's just the type of environment we grow up with and past experiences. But ohwell, I know that he's being straight forward for my own good.

On the side note, I really don't like feeling guilty. Sian ji pua. Okay time to do something to make up for my mistakes. Ohwell.

Handover

After 1 year and 4 months, it's finally over. Netball really let me realised that at times, life isn't all so peaceful. Maybe after so many peaceful years in Dunman High, I'm too used to listening to instructions. But ohwell, it's a new change environment and I'm so glad to get to know these bunch of little ducklings. Never been so close to my juniors before...like it's the v.first time. But yeah, I really appreciate the effort...so sweet with the poppers and all. And the red bra...so embarrassing. Thank god there isn't many people there and not much photos as evidence so :D JIAYOU K MY LITTLE ONES (:

I really didn't see this coming. Honestly, it's actually the last thing on my mind. I didn't dare to tell her what exactly happened but honestly, what if it really deteriorated. I've been telling myself it's just cause I'm out of form, I haven't been training as vigorously as before but what if it's really not cause of that. There are just so many things to think about, so many decisions to make, so many sacrifices...

On a side note, I really hope you will read this, I'm really not in the best of mood so stop it. Especially today, if you think it's really funny, keep it to yourself then. If it's really torture to your eyes or it's too horrific, then don't look at all. I didn't choose to be like that. I've already give in a lot of times, trying to tolerate everything and honestly I'm reaching my threshold.

Seriously I'm really reaching my limits already. Both physically and mentally exhausted. I can't push myself when it comes to sports, I need much more sleep than usual cause my body isn't functioning as well as before, I don't feel as happy as before cause nothing seems to be going well for me. Have been telling myself to keep positive, to just tolerate all these nonsense but how much longer?

Really can't wait to get out of JC, do whatever I want before...life is just too short. 

Really thankful for my results. Honestly. I've learn to appreciate life and the people around me. Although it's check up again, I guess I should be thankful that I don't need to do the horrible stupid scanning every year. But then again, 3yrs is up so I still have to do it tmr. But honestly thank god for

1. My results
2. For helping me emotionally, sorting up my thoughts
3. For helping me to get over, to get a closure to what I've been hanging on for a long time
4. For the awesome and wonderful people around me, consistently making school not so boring. 

For now, I need to be more discipline. I need to stop feeling so tired. GAHHH. Slept for another 2 hours again :/ Time to sleep now. BYE (:

Had been a long time ever since I've just sit on my table for hours just staring at the computer to do my sketching. Although it's not entirely complete in term of shades, Hopefully it looks proportionate? HAHA. Will try to do more of this in the future if there's time. I really really wanna master the art of drawing faces. Being able to do the proportion itself is really such a tough job, not to to mention the skin texture itself. That's why i hate drawing smooth surface. HEH

On a sad note, my lips are freaking itchy now, the swell isn't that bad as before but it's still damn dry. Ohwell. Maybe it's time to see a skin doctor soon.

LAA bootcamp

I'm really glad I've decided to go for this camp. Got to know people from v.different paths coming together to work together. Although I'm not one of the participants but I've really learnt a lot from this. It's amazing how having a common goal could bring strangers to bond tgt so quickly. It really got me thinking about my ambition in the future. Maybe doing something related to design may not be related to architecture or product design. Maybe art teacher will be interesting too. Hopefully I'll be able to find out what i really wanna be soon. My future seems so blur now.

Maybe I should start drawing more often. Not should, it's i choose to (: HAHA. Okay back to official work. Bye (:

Feeling really horrible inside. Really don't feel like seeing anyone, joining anyone, just wanna be alone. I'm really so sorry Michelle about today but i really hope you'll enjoy today cause it's your day. Don't feel like blogging anymore.

Super addicted to Grimm. It's super nice to watch luh. Anyway had great fun this weekend

Thurs: Out with Raey
Fri: Shopping with Kimberly and Sharo
Sat: Went out with Kaimin to get his stuff.

Now I'm so broke. My money with him. Still thinking should i get the crop top which is damn chio but $30...SIAN

Anyway feeling damn shuang now after jogging + skipping ^^ I should do this more often. Can jog later cause there's no sun + there's no one so it's practically damn shiok. Ohwell, pictures...need to wait for kimberly to upload ): BYE

I really don't know how am I gonna pass tmr econs MCTs when I've just started econs today. Ohwell, only one word in my mind now. GG. But like what sharon said, this is still march CTs. The goal is "A" level! Really wanna give it all and try my best for it. I gotta say this is my first time I'm gonna attempt to work damn bloody hard! Gotta admit I'm damn slack during PSLE. ^^ HAHA

But feeling so URGH now. Shall sleep and wake up early to do. HEHE NIGHTS

It's Mr Seow's birthday today and I guess it really got me thinking about the past. AGAIN. HAHA! But ohwell, gotta admit he's a really caring and nice teacher. Remember the days we used to complain that he's lousy HAHAH! But in the end cause i lost focus ._. Young and naive days. I'll never be like that again. Shall get my priorities straight. HEH.

Studying sessions was rather not bad, but not productive. Ohwell. I hate chionging last min. My dad taught me until HAHAHHA , WTS luh. But seriously why is he so smart. It took like like 30 mins to understand one whole topic and it took me like one whole day. WTS. The worst part is he taught me like 2 topics just ON THE SPOT. I need to be more hardworking. HARDWORKING HARDWORKING HARDWORKING. OKAY SHALL DRILL THIS IN MY MIND AND DO PHYSICS NOW. BAIIII

[edited]Realized it's someone else bday too. I'm really glad it's fading now. FOCUS WENNING 'A' LVL! NO MORE DISTRACTIONS. This is your LAST chance.

Netball'12

Photos from NSL. Felt really bad that I've created so much problems. I really hate it when I have to multitask. But ohwell, i know it's not an excuse. Hopefully the next batch will do much better than my lvl. But I'm really glad the juniors are just soooo cute and enthu. Yup. Really make my SIANJIPUA saturday to a happy day HEHE!

Anyway March CTs are here and honestly I feel super unprepared. I need more food at home ): Running out of food supply. On a sad note, why isn't there like burgundy tops around. What's left are those big big size 18....WTS. Where are all the size 6 and 8 sia!  And where's all the basic v neck top from forever21 ): Could only find flowery shorts. I WANT BLACK SHORTS! Seriously produce more plssss! The men's cardigan was like CHIO TO THE MAX. Really tempted to get one cause it's so cheap and chio butttt ): Decided not to. Maybe I should get the cardigan from pull and bear HEHE!

Btw, if you're reading this, I really don't know what you're thinking, but stop being so insecure. Seriously what's your problem. I hate people that keep repeating the same stuff over and over again. I don't get what's wrong with being alone.

 

Saw this at http://shopskinned.com. It's soooo CHIOOO! But too bad it's out of stock. I want itttt but URGHHH. SIAN TTM. Seriously I need to stop being so materialistic ):

AHHH I'm not done with my HW yet. SUCKS. Ohwell. BYE

[editted] SAW SOME TRIBAL PULLOVER. GAHHHHHHH! Fringed top + Maroon v neck tee + turquoise cardigan/pullover. Materialisticgirl94# I really feel like making stuff, like there's just too many things in my mind now, i wanna pen everything down, or rather draw everything but CT's in 2 weeks time. GAH! Maybe it's time for me to go stationary shopping tmr. Need motivation to study ): Bye