I need to have more self control over my emotions i guess. Have been letting it consume me until...I make stupid irrational decisions. Honestly I felt quite disgusted with my ways lately. Not saying YOLO is not good but then again doing things that's actually against my principles, I do have to admit even if it's so called not my fault, but then again to know that there's a possibility of it occurring, I'm the one that's to be blamed eventually. Just hope that's the last time I guess.

Then again thanks to much for everything. I really appreciate whatever you've done. I guess I need a break from it.

And as for you this stupid bitch, thanks for totally screwing my mood ytd. Fuck you and hope you enter hell. I just don't understand why are you fucking so persistent when he doesn't even like you. Threaten me all you want.

Time to settle uni stuff.

Not really happy with my CAP but as long as I've tried my best, I guess its sufficient enough. Time to really be more consistent compared to last sem. Thanks for cheering me up (: honestly. I really appreciate ittt. Okay back to checking on how to SU. AHHH byeeee

Saturday : Had frisbee in the morning and went out with Gen after that. That two were super late but ohwell, the present + treat made up for it I guess. Skinny Pizza + 47 Ronin was okayyy. Anyway IDK if you'll be reading this but just to let you know that no matter what, I'll be there k ^^ STAY STRONGGGG <3

Friday SCGP. Rich came over to NUS to accompany me. Ahhh, forever my bro manzxz. Haven't seen some of them for a super long time. Just like ant <3 HAHAHA. Okay forever getting rejected by him ): HAHHAA. Nevertheless good company.

Can't wait for Wednesday again. Hopefully we're lucky again like last week HAHAHA. Okay okay time to pack for tmr. BYEEEE

A leopard will never change its spots

As much as I'm enjoying what I'm doing, I know I'm suppose to stop this but somehow...my heart is telling me not to care. I see history repeating itself again.

Tiring week I've gotta say.

Monday : Went out with Gen, Leon and Andre for tendollarsclub HAHHAA. That place is quite good i guess. Except for the fact that the computer is harder to use compared to teoheng hehh. Had been a long time ever since I've last kbox. Sang for like 5 hrs D: We're amazing ttm manzxz. Head over to bugis for dinner at some noodle shop. Not bad i guess ^^ Had an epic time standing in front of the fountain talking to those people. Ohwell

Tuesday : TWO TRNGS IN A DAY IS NO JOKE. Had like frisbee in the morning and handball at night. I swear I was dying by the time I had handball trng. ALL THE JUMPING AND ALL. I better lose weight within this mth manzxz or else...

Wednesday : Had frisbee trng and as usual, really enjoy playing it tgt with the frisbee people. All so cute and adorable. It was damn tiring cause we had PT and plus the afternoon made it quite bad but the company was great. Had just acia for dinner with them. I didn't know that it existed in NUS luhh. After that rushed off to meet gen, Imran and Zhafri to celebrate badass birthday. Glad he liked it. Went over to Zouk as usual. Everytime I'm with Gen, the most epic things will happen. Was practically raging yet so entertained at the same time HAHHAHA.

Thursday : Yes there was only 5 of us and was practically dying under the hot sun. Plus i didn't sleep before that cause was busy looking after someone + didn't eat supper or breakfast + system filled with alcohol. I swear that's like killer but thankfully I've managed to conquer ittttt. Totally crashed after bathing.

Sadly all my goalkeepers are like going overseas alr ): Nuuu. No more entertainment for next week. Damnzxz. Okay shall try to sleep now. Aching all over ): byeeee

I didn't know everything could change so much. It took me long enough to realise that someone I've once had so much faith, someone that I've appreciated isn't the same as before. I know people change but I didn't know the change was this much. Honestly feeling quite disappointed and sad at the same time. Initially I thought removing part of the sentimental side of you could really help you, at least with your self confidence but now, I don't even know will I be able to maintain this friendship.To the extend of using terms and conditions in exchange for opinion...where's my old friend that I could once pour my heart to? I miss the old you.

Eventful week:

Thurs: Out with Raey + Stayover with Ber

Fri: Stayover with trackers <3

Sat: Out with Bestie + Supper with Ivan

Happygirl94 ^^V 

Next week filled with trng + outings with my favourite people too. Can't wait for this monday. Gonna be so tired but I'm sure Im gonna like it hehhh. Watching Sherlock now. Nice showwww. Me like it. Shall sleep now. BYEEE

As expected im getting addicted to it.  I guess I've alr expected it just in a matter of time. Got a lil too high and thankfully gen was looking after me. It doesn't feel that bad after all huh. Sometimes I feel myself evolving to someone I don't recognise but then again.  Life is short. Fuck it

BACK IN SINGAPORE. Finally get to update this space. Msia was okay i guess. Slept a lot this time cause i fell sick there but THANKFULLY for my lovely friends that actually contacted me thru WA. HAHAHAH ENTERTAINMENT TTM. Their company was even better than shopping. Didn't manage to buy much cause i was sick but yeah.

Today met up with Gen again. HAHAHA. I swear I'm gonna see her like every week. My buddy in crime. It seems like we're always doing things tgt. HAHAHHA. Watched Frozen tgt with Yingjie and Chongxian. SO COINCIDENTAL but it was a great movieeee. LOVE ITTTT. After that met up wtih Dre and Leon for dinner and move. SUSHIII. Food was great and the company was seriously retarded. Ended up watching our second movie of the day Catching Fire. HAHAH. Poor Leon had to watch it a second time. OHYEAH thanks for the ride back.

Can't wait for tmr with roomie and Sharlene and meeting Gen after that. <3 WALAO turning lesbian alr HAHAHA. But yeah I don't mind meeting her cause there's always so much to do. This time the 4th pair HAHAH. Can't waittttt <3 I knew I'll totally be addicted to it but AIYA WHATEVER, IT'S THE HOLIDAYS. TIME TO ENJOYYYY. Time to sleep naooo. BYEEE