Why do I have to always have to be so kaypo and check what's going on. Sometimes I really think I'm just either damn bloody dumb or else....Really don't know what is going on. Had been a long time ever since I really felt so horrible.

I really wanna move on but why can't I. Really wanna just find someone new and just bam forget about this past. Yet a part of me just cannot drop it somehow.

Ain't I really useless, why can't i just fall for anyone else and stop thinking of it.

Just realised something and I'm really proud of you. I guess your hard work paid off and you're in a school of your choice. Continue having this drive and ambition that you have now and work hard (: Really really happy for you. At least there's a closure now. All the best my friend (:

Such a sweet song )': Totally got me thinking about some stuff lately but yeah, I know I know, I need to stop looking at the past. Not hoping for anything so yup (: Thankful for friends that really care and have been there for me lately. Feeling so loved by my two 'sisters' HAHAHAHAHA. Talking about that, totally forgotten to update my Bday post.

FIRSTLY, celebrated my pre-bday with Belle and Yewkit. Had been a long time ever since we last went out, especially belle. Ate at strictly pancake for the first time and my allergyyy )): Looked like some joker luh. Literally a joker. Managed to do some catching up. Thanks belle for the card. Really didn't expect you to actually rmb my birthday and mailing it overrrr (: As for Yewkit, thanks for being such a good bitchhhh! HAHA! Thanks for the treat + organising this + cake + coming all the way to pass me my card ^^ 

On the actual day, went out with Ber, Kiat and Sharon (: Had sushi for dinner ^^ Had a great time with them as usual. Thanks so much for spending my birthday with me. Had been a long 6 yrs and I'm glad that I've known yall. So yeah, really cherish y'all SOOOOOO much.

Went out with Raey on Friday and god I really miss this babeee. As usual storytelling is always interesting. I wonder why isn't Raey a guy luh! Thanks for the presenttt. I love it SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much. You totally know me so well! I feel like such a bitch for still owing you one so yeah. I'm a horrible friend ): SO thank you for consistently showering me with your love and sincerity. Okay you know Im bad with words

On Sat, went for NTU open hse and went for dinner with Fang, KM, Sharon and Ber. That place really not bad lo. I find it rather worth it. Considering my meal cost HAHA quite cheap HAHAHA! Ended up playing candy crush tgt HAHAHAH! But ohwell, enjoyed the company. 

OHYEAH have to thank my other pretty sister, shiwei,  for being the first to wish me happy birthday. HAHAHA! Although I've known you like....IDK, not very long abt 2 mths but yeah, thanks for ALWAYS being so sensitive (At times overly sensitive). HAHAH. 

Last of all, have to thank everyone that bothered to actually msg over (SMS, fb, call etc). Really appreciate it. Finally knew who're the friend to keep and who ain't. Idk just 4 mths and I guess it's rather clear who actually really put in the effort to be part of your life and those that really can't be bothered. 

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Woke up feeling really horrible now. I guess it's just a fact that the results will always be there and I'll never be able change it. Ytd was really terrible, thankful for my friends to be there but deep inside, there'll always be a part of me that died. I know some may say that results isn't everything or whatsoever but in the end of the day, it always matters. Just hope I'll be able to enter singapore university and I'll be satisfied with that.