Sometimes Im just super thankful that hate don't last. I thought I've used to hate you for doing that to me but now then I've realised if I continue loving you,  I'll just suffer until now.

Thanks to you I'll always have this wall towards people that don't practice what they preach. It'll just disgust me and think about how you break my trust again and again,  how you make use of me again and again,  maybe it's not your fault. Maybe I'm too naive at that pt of time. Thanks for showing me how selfish people are just to get what they want. Thanks for turning me into what I am now.

I don't hate you for what you've done. I just wanna thank you for being part of my life,  making me subconsciously cautious about people around me. Thanks for making me realised that there's no such thing as true love. 

Finally watched a movie that I felt I could somehow relate to. Cafe waiting love was good. Although I always had the mindset that everyone had someone that they're meant to be with,  but as I've got older,  it seems like my views about love have changed so much.  Like love seems to be more of a fairy-tale rather than something that's true. Maybe that's the bad part of being a sucker for romance films. Sometimes I just hope that someone will prove me wrong. But then again it seems so impossible. I need to stop being such a dreamer