I need to stop being so selfish. As much as i wanna be happy for him, knowing that he've found someone better and he's happier, I've to admit im feeling quite bitter cause even after 4 mths....I just cant help but to feel bitter, wasting my time, effort and feelings for something that felt nothing towards me. Knowing that I'm just so insignificant to the person that once meant so much to me. 

Even after 4 mths i still feel like I'm running away from it. Stupid decisions that I've made, things I've been doing to destroy myself....When am i gonna stop being so stupid and just move on. 

Reality will only set in the next day when you just wake up. Although it's not a break up but it definitely feels worst than one. Knowing how things will change after you told me everything, how you look at me, how you're gonna treat me....It sucks cause only after 2 yrs then I know how you really think when I initially thought it was a rejection then. But then since this isn't the first time it's happening, i guess its better for me to do something now than in the future. I will hate it if you had to go thru the same decision making process again next time. Thanks for being part of my life. No matter what, if you need me, I'll always be there for you.

Bye blog, back to tumblr haha

Every time I'll tell myself to have more faith but somehow deep inside I know that there's a part of me that's slowly dying every single day