At times I really wonder why do I make certain decisions in life. But then again at least Im doing the right thing I think. Although Im kinda regretting it now but hopefully I won't in the long run. Feeling quite empty, seems like there's really nothing that's keeping me going somehow. The thrill, the passion, the excitement, seems like everything is fading off. I feel like a walking zombie.

Had a great time talking to bestie ytd! Glad that things are back to normal again. Thanks for always telling me the truth. YAYYY. For now back to watching "Her". I've been wasting my entire dayyyyy

Could have done better.

Can someone teach me how not to think so much.

Had handball friendly with the alumni today. Idk why but as time pass by, Im really starting to enjoy keeping, despite cracking my wrist and like obtaining blueblack all over my legs and body. Its fun somehow. Although I did better today compared to the game with NTU alumni, but still...the fact that I've missed a few balls...URGHHH. But ohwell I'll try harder. 

Now I'm seriously thinking about IVP. IDK can I tahan both trng and studying. As much as I wanna stay in hall...my parents don't allow. Which means I need to work during the 3mth to earn money ): Shall go and run after Im done with Sherlock HEHHH. BYEEEE

 

Went for a jog just now. HEHHH. Feeling so guilty after eating so much rice today. But the chicken rice at eastwood is seriously the best chicken rice everrrr. Never get sick of eating itttt. Found a really good mixed veg curry rice opp TJC too. AHHH. FOOD <3

Finally got a new ultrabook after my old laptop keeps crashing when I watch Sherlock. Freaking annoying I swear. Yes I am a complain queen. Can't help it I guess HAHAHA. I'm suppose to sleep now but I can't do so cause I slept way too much after I've reached home. SADLY HOLIDAYS ENDING IN A WEEK TIME. Won't be able to enjoy life as much cause 

1) IHG is coming. That means my weekends will be filled with trngs and competitions...NO MORE GOING OUT ): But then again thankfully my friday will technically be free since there's a burden ES1531 will be from 8-10am. 

Hmmm I realised I haven't post about 2013 and my new year resolution for 2014.

Basically I've really enjoyed 2013. 

1. Spent the first half of the year working. Yes that part was rather meaningless. But then I'm thankful for having a friendship which I'll remember forever. Although things changed but Im really thankful for the memories. 

2. Spamming NUS Camps (June to Aug). Having to spend like 2 mths on camps tgt with Weihao and Gen. Really got to know so much more about engin and hall. Met so many people (although superficially) but its a new experience I got to say. Getting out of my comfort zone 

3. Joining pageant. It's really a pity that I've distant away from someone that really prove himself worthy as a good sister but I guess sometimes its just fate. But then again I really got to know Gen better which I've considered a blessing (: Normally people say its hard to find close friends in uni but Im glad I've met a bunch of them. Hopefully things won't change. I hope.

4. Being part of Raffles. Gotta admit Im an ass that always pon trng before holidays to study. Got to say Im really thankful for people like Stanley, Nico, HQ and Qinyuan. Really thankful for the notes and motivational speeches. I'm also thankful for ppl for being so thoughtful, always bringing me hot drinks when its too cold and supper when I didn't ask for it.

5. Last but not least, my friends and my parents. Special mention my 4C brothers, trackers, Raey, Chan and Kimblurly. My parents had really been really tolerant and nice to me ever sine Ive entered hall. Always missing my parents when Im in hall and theyre forever feeding me which totally explained how Ive gained weight esp nearing exams season. My friends that have always been making the effort to jio me out and reminding me that studies isnt everything. Thanks so muchhh. Really <3

As for 2014, shall be a year of breaking rules I guess. Ever since holidays start I've been a different person I guess. Although the stuff are not within my comfort zone but I guess I've fun trying out new stuffs. Yup YOLO manzxz. So far although I've gotta admit I'm affected in some way or another but I just need time to adjust myself. I know I can do it. Can't wait for the upcoming week before sch reopens. 

Okay I shall sleep soon. Gonna have handball friendly tmr! Hope I wont screw it up like that time. BYEEEE

Thankfully today's friendly wasn't that hiong. At least I didn't run much for frisbee.  But almost died after 5 hours of handball. Legs filled with bruises alr luh. Uglyyyy ): feeling so hungry now cause I only ate lunch ): heading home nowww.  HUNGRYYYY

Had a really great holiday! Manage to spend time with my favourite people!!! Shall let the pictures do all the talking. Using my phone to update so....no mood to type so much.  Ohwell. Gonna play laser tag now.  Can't wait! Zaijiannn