Read something that really struck me hard. How I wished they could continue the experiment for a longer period of time. Feeling so empty. Really need a aim in life. 

Really feel so happy when I see my dear 4C guys graduating. Like what Isaac said, y'all are like my family. Had always been close with these people since sec 3 and will always try my best to be close to them. Sorry for being so sian during that day cause HAHAHA! Didnt have enough sleep the night before. Decided to start sleeping at 1 from now on. My eyebags really cmi manzxz. 

Finally talked to BFF after so long. HAHHA! Had been a long time ever since I've last seen him. So glad that he's so happy with his gf. They're so cuteeee! Hope you'll be seeing this HAHAH! 

Okay one more week till end of mid yrs. time to study physics! Byeeee

Urgh, feeling damn sucky now cause I don't know should I actually tell a friend abt what I've heard but then again idk it's true anot. Feeling so bad cause he seems so in love. Life sucks. Why is life so unfair. 

Mugging this week = unproductive. Maybe I had been playing too much alr, but somehow I feel super not in the studying mood. SIANZXZ. But yeah, had lots of fun ytd tgt with the frisbee people. Ran damn a lot during frisbee at sentosa plus played vball too ^^ HEHE! Studied awhile with them and had drinking session ytd. I should totally stop during beer cause not say its that nice yet there's lot of calories ): NUUUUU. Okay back to physics ): BAIII

Went for a run just now and actually really thought thru abt recent stuff. Finally realized why I felt so insecure lately, would really like to clarify things. Hate it when I'm in doubt and I can't do anything abt it. Hope that I'm not thinking too much.

Happy week 😁😁😁

I'm suppose to be sleeping now but OHWELL, woke up cause its too hot just now. Back from social night with Matt. Thanks for inviting me and I really appreciate it a lot. Thanks for the gifts and being part of my life. Forever my '35 yr old potential husband material' HAHAHA! Come NUS lehhhh! HAHAHAHA! 

Met up with Richmond, Rason and Gabriel HAHAHHA! Happy happy happy. Had been a long time ever since I've met the other two. And Richmond HAHHAH! Forever being a retardddd. That's why you're da best brother everrrrr~

My dear Raeyyy! Love her so much for practically accompanying me to eat all the good food and shoes ^^ Really miss this girl soooooo much! So proud of her at the same time for being able to chase her dreams and actually living the lifeeee.

So thankful for all my friends, especially those long lasting ones. Thanks for always showering me with care and concern and actually making the effort to maintain our friendships. 

Feeling so tired now, like physically. But overall really enjoyed the late night talk with my OG. Had been a long time ever since I've last talked to them. Thankfully I've got BFF to actually update me about what's going on in the group sooooo...HAHAH! Okay am suppose to do my work now ): Stupid burden ES1102. CHAOOOO

Just finished mid autumn festival. Tired like crap but ohwell, one more hour to study. Gotta say sometimes i feel quite disappointed with the comm. Like last min nvm but at least try to do it as a group. I know all of us got commitments but...But then again maybe someone just have to take charge and set all the deadline. Okay, time to actually get some planning done and ask everyone to do something. But then again Im quite happy to have met wonderful seniors that are helping me with so many stuffs. Okay shall cut the crap now. BYEEEE

Feeling so excited this coming week. Raey + Rich are coming over to NUS this coming week ^^ AHHHH, I miss both of them so muchhh! Realised i always have affinity with people starting with R huh. HAHAHA! Feeling quite happy now for some reason. Maybe my short break with Ivan made me not so sian. Simpang food 8D After effects of studying continuously since monday huhhh. Next friday social night with matthew too ^^ Eventful week huhhh. Had been quite a while since I've been feeling like this. 

Maybe meeting up with my probably one of my OLDEST friend. I believe things won't end up so and yeah, we'll go back to what we're initially. Quite glad that uni helped me in some way or another, although it's damn tiring to study everyday but then again it helped me to prioritize what i need to focus in life and who i wanna keep in my life. Thankfully I've realised that studying isn't everything and decided to go for my night run tgt with hall mates. 

Once again I feel so pampered by mummy! She's gonna go out with me to ikea + buy my soccer shoes for ultimate frisbee. Hopefully i can pull her along for shopping too HAHAH! Ah, maybe I should send mummy more random I miss you texts HAHAHAH! But then again i love my dad for practically fetching me to sch everytime i 'book in'. 

Ohwell shall play my favourite songs nowwww! BYEEEEE

Everytime I try to resolve something, I'll just make it more complicated. Do we really have to end up this way?

Feeling quite happy with my loot today. Had been a long time ever since I've really shopped. I got a feeling I'll continue spending more tmr but yeah, I really do need a break. Feeling rather empty lately. Let's just say hall activities and studies have been making me really... Really don't understand why do I think so much nowadays. In the past, although I have an aim when I take up each CCA, I won't even consider so much, esp about how much time I'll be 'wasting'. But now, in order to have more study time, I've been asking people around me for their opinions. I feel disgusted with myself, like how kiasu I've become and how un-friendly I've been recently.

Glad that everything came to an end ytd. Sorry for what I've done and hope that after this, we'll be friends. Just give both of us some time to adjust things and I'm sure things will be back to normal soon enough. 

Another dedication to my dear Genevieve. Really love you for always being there for me and helping me no matter what. Love you so much although i know you won't be seeing this. You've been the best thing ever since I've entered NUS and I really appreciate having you as my bestfriend. Although I haven't been seeing you much lately but just to let you know that you'll always be the besttttt 

Feeling so troubled but somehow my thoughts are super messed up. Need to stop being such a burden. Wenning I know you can do it. Stop being so dependent on others. Time for you to grow up and be independent. 

Shall bathe and sleep it off. Meeting my babies tmr at NLB. Byeee