I need to stop being so selfish. As much as i wanna be happy for him, knowing that he've found someone better and he's happier, I've to admit im feeling quite bitter cause even after 4 mths....I just cant help but to feel bitter, wasting my time, effort and feelings for something that felt nothing towards me. Knowing that I'm just so insignificant to the person that once meant so much to me. 

Even after 4 mths i still feel like I'm running away from it. Stupid decisions that I've made, things I've been doing to destroy myself....When am i gonna stop being so stupid and just move on.