Rhex camp just ended.  Just feeling so immune to camp. Somehow I don't get the hype anymore as compared to last time. Just didn't have the energy to socialise around. Plus the location that we went reminded me of the past which honestly had been affecting me but I'll try to get out of it

I'm so thankful I've decided to club ytd. First time clubbing with slippers cause it was such an impromptu decision. Really had fun with these people. Just enough alcohol + great company. I guess it was fun cockblocking + trying to be a cupid haha. I'm surprised I felt this way cause in the past, every time I go to club,  I'll question myself why did I spend money on making myself feel miserable.  Esp for the past few trips to club. But last night the music was awesomeeee hehe. 

Had been feeling so lost.  Like idk what am I doing with my life.  I feel like ever since I've entered to uni,  I've no goal + passion. I just feel like am a total mess compared to sec school and jc.  But since I've taken up tuition,  at least it feels like I'm heading somewhere. So thankful for the sudden increase in no. of students.  Now I scared that I can't cope with it when school reopen but I'll try my best.

Plus I'm really thankful that my cap increased. Was surprised that those subj that im not confident in did better than those that ive studied. Will try to pull my cap up again next semester. Zan was reminding me that I said that every sem BUT in the end it won't happen. I'll prove her wrong.  hahaha. I swear I'm so thankful for my close friends. They just make me realised I'm not alone in this.

Although emotionally I feel very shitty but now when I'm alone,  I feel happy with myself. At least for now I've feel like a better person. I hope things will get better from here and hopefully one day I'll be back on track again.