Can someone help me to erase this pain that I'm feeling now. I wished I'll just sleep and never wake up ever again. Why can't you just fucking be happy for me when I am and always pulling me back to the pathetic state I've once been. Sometimes I really hate you so much to the core.  Always saying you're doing things for my own good but fuck.  I don't wanna think. Just do anything to remove my heart and brain. I'm begging you.