Watched "Any Day Now" and "Patch Adams". Really love shows like this. Makes me happy and HAHAHAHA hard to focus during work. Plus it really kills time since I'm like super bored during work. So thankful for Cheryl for always being there HAHAH! She's like a cute big sister that always come out to talk to me and give me drinks <3 Plus the other ladies in the office are damn cute too HAHAHHA! Always telling me to study hard in university and all. Ahhh, love jobs like this which involves working with people. Always so unexpected but hey, getting to talk to them for a few mins allow me to know more about them even thou they're much older HAHAHHA! Shall wake up early tmr to run. Hopefully I'll HEH. But im like aching all over alr~ AHHH. Okay back to suits. BYEEEE

Have a suddenly vision in mind to actually start working out. HAHAHA for once after so long right. But sadly cause ytd was my first time doing it after such a long time, poor me injured my back by obtaining a blueblack. How noob can I get )): but ohwell, which means I've to jog instead of conditioning. This time I must try to maintain, EVEN DURING ORIENTATION.

Yeah talking about that, I guess I wanna go to NTU if I have to choose material engineering. Need to start preparing for hall life which I'm kinda looking forward too :3 Hopefully I'll enjoy the orientation and all ;)

Ohyeah having an off day today which is why I got the time to actually blog but ohwell, not like anyone reads this. Life is just so boring nowadays. Can't wait for UNIIIII ^^ Okay shall pack up and prepare to meet michelle nowww ^^ BYEEEE

Instead of the usual emotions, feeling rather revengeful rather than sad. Not saying I haven't felt like that before but now, it's getting stronger, much stronger than before. I don't know this is a good indication or not but really have a very strong urge to do something. You'll see.

Still not really used to the new lifestyle now but mommy and daddy seems really happy for the past two days HAHHAAH! I bet they miss me too much alrrr :3 HAHHA! Really happy to talk to some of the NS guys. Now that all the guys are in NS, it seems like they're on the route to turning into muscular, manly and more desirable man HAHHAHA.

Plus i finally found a makan companion for lunch alr ^^ She's like some da jiejie HAHHAHA! Plus the staffs + cilents + agents are really soooo friendly ^^ Now that I'm getting used to working there, it seems not bad huhhh. Plus free movie time HAHHAH! I think Im like some slacker but who cares luh, there's really nothing much to do HAHAHAH!

High tea session tmr and I hope to get to know some of my potential coursemate ;) HAHHAHA! Okay luh, shall continue with suits ^^ byeee

Dreams are representation of our subconscious thoughts

Felt super relieved I felt that way but then again if it really happens in real life, will I be able to feel the same too? Maybe I've been trying too hard to suppress my feelings that sometimes I don't even know how to feel towards certain issue. Maybe I'm becoming emotionless which might not be a bad thing after all.

Regret

Sometimes a white lie won't harm anyone. Maybe it's only the best to actually maintain our current statues now and not progress any further. Don't wish to actually lose you as a friend that I really want to hold on to so dearly. Sometimes I really don't understand what am I doing but ohwell.

Maybe I need to stop being so impractical and start being logical alr. Need to start following my head instead of my heart. Gotta feeling this friendship will just fade off soon enough.

Insecurity

Feeling so overwhelm with everything that's inside me now. Although at this point, I'll not able to change the fact, the only way to accept it is to change my point of view towards it in order to accept the change. Really trying hard not to be scared but then again my inner walls are building up again.