I need to stop being so selfish. As much as i wanna be happy for him, knowing that he've found someone better and he's happier, I've to admit im feeling quite bitter cause even after 4 mths....I just cant help but to feel bitter, wasting my time, effort and feelings for something that felt nothing towards me. Knowing that I'm just so insignificant to the person that once meant so much to me. 

Even after 4 mths i still feel like I'm running away from it. Stupid decisions that I've made, things I've been doing to destroy myself....When am i gonna stop being so stupid and just move on. 

Reality will only set in the next day when you just wake up. Although it's not a break up but it definitely feels worst than one. Knowing how things will change after you told me everything, how you look at me, how you're gonna treat me....It sucks cause only after 2 yrs then I know how you really think when I initially thought it was a rejection then. But then since this isn't the first time it's happening, i guess its better for me to do something now than in the future. I will hate it if you had to go thru the same decision making process again next time. Thanks for being part of my life. No matter what, if you need me, I'll always be there for you.

Bye blog, back to tumblr haha

Every time I'll tell myself to have more faith but somehow deep inside I know that there's a part of me that's slowly dying every single day

HIIII, I'm back from M'sia. another 10 more days and I'll be off to KOREAAA. I can't wait. hehe. Actually i wanted to blog initially but now...HAHA TOO LAZY HEHE. PIG NING. Okay shall pack my bag for tmr~ BAIII

Helloooo, had been a long time since I've updated this space. Life had been rather good although fucking busy. Idk why the fuck i decide to overload this sem but yeah. Plus now Im not so busy cause I'm almost done with tuition (: I really hope all my kiddos will do well, esp those that put in a lot of effort. It feels really good to see them really trying so hard. From the time when I've first taught them until now...most of yall came a long way....Im really glad to see y'all enjoying math. I rmb how much yall used to hate math when I first started teaching...Its really sian to teach someone that's so reluctant to learn. But Im glad that along the way, yall decided to give math a chance and learn that math can be enjoyable too. Yall remind me of myself...esp when im not that smart...I rmb really practicing math every single day...just to prove to myself that i can do it. Although at the end of the day I didnt really do as well as I've wanted to, but to me its the process that matters. Im glad that I'm able to teach yall and change your perception of math (: I really hope that all of you will get at least B3 (: Thanks for making my teaching process so enjoyable. But now, its my turn to study ): So many reports, so many projects....3 more sems to go and I'm done with this....Then I can really teach full time. For now back to EG2401. YOURE A BITCH LUH

I've never felt like this for a very long time. I thought Ive seen the worst but now....idk what to say and how to feel.